I wore my new Pierce the veil shirt today. Loved it! It fits so well. Today i was thinking of King for a little, and i didn't get sad or miss him. I cut myself last night. The pain felt good. As i ran my fingers through my cuts i renumbered how sweet it feels, the pain that is.  It feels, like I'm not alone. Only few people know I'm cutting again (they didn't even know i had ever done it). i stopped before so surely i can stop again, but i don't think i want to. I love hurting myself. I feel alive.