Stage 4 the fear of trying: FrankIero Andthe Cellabration

Today was fun. School was cool. After I got home I chilled and then got on YouNow. Not to watch, but to broadcast! Yep!! Little old scared "never put me in front of a camera" self actually got on YouNow and put her face online LIVE and talked to people. I met this guy named Alex who lives in Germany. He was really cool. After that I picked out some things off Hot Topic for my dad to buy me. Later on I watched Eugenia, a.k.a my best friend and and anime cosplayer( I wish she's a YouTuber but we talk on Twitter a lot) broadcast on YouNow while playing Akinator. He couldn't guess what I was thinking of. It was Patrick Stump from Fall Out Boy. After that I got bored so I went on Omegle. Believe it or not I only saw four penises! Haha yeah seeing any penises isn't good, but considering its Omegle, that's a good number. Now I think I'm gonna stay up all night long and just watch movies and stuff. Maybe I'll get back on YouNow. Have a fun weekend !

Hold On 'Til May- Pierce The Veil

That title never meant more to me than it does right now. Today was a good day. I might be on Grandma watch tomorrow so school may or may not happen tomorrow(I find out tonight). I kind of hope I can stay home, that'll be nice. I think I had an existential crisis today. I was watching a YouTuber and all his videos, and i started thinking about life. I'm supposed to go to college, and then work myself to death? I don't want that. I have dreams and aspirations. Places I've wanted to go, things I've wanted to see. So I decided to take a year or two off after college(I do want that degree haha) to travel the world like I've always wanted I'll document the whole thing for myself and other. I want people like me to be able to do what they want and stop caring about how it'll make others feel. Its time we start doing some things for ourselves as well as others. Yhas all for tonight, sleep well cx

Pressure- The 1975

Today was cool. I fell asleep in class and nobody woke me up when it was lunch time so I was late for lunch with Briana. I'm almost don't with my paper, just gotta wrap it up and edit it. I'm either gonna get a relatively good grade or a super bad grade. I mean, I'm following what I was supposed to do, but in a different way. Hopefully it passes the criteria because if I fail this I don't think I'll graduate. If that happens I'll cry and get my GED, I'm not joking. I was going to say something but my ad made me do something and now I forgot so I'm just gonna end it here. Have wonderful nightmares cx

Dont Go- Bring Me The Horizon

BRIANA'S MOM IS LETTING HER COME TO WARPED TOUR WITH US!! I'm so excited like that place is not ready for all the fangirling that will happen from just the two of us !! Today was pretty good. It went normal like any other normal day. Sometimes I see things that certain people do and it makes me laugh. Like I was really upset about that??? I need to reevaluate my life choices haha!! Just kidding, but honestly, I saw something today that made me laugh. It just made me think: That's what I'm not, and I'm damn proud of that! I don't twerk, I mosh. I'm not popular, but my friends aren't fake. I'm "weird", but I'm gonna be the one to make it in life and get everything she wants while you sit in your little house twerking on Saturdays and "praying" on Sundays. At least I'm honest with myself and respect myself and I'm appearance to the people who matter. ANYWHO BECAUSE I DID NOT MEAN TO TAKE IT THERE WITH THAT LONG ASS RUN ON SENTENCE, I'm counting down the days until graduation and warped tour. I have no clue what I'm gonna do after all the fun stuff. We'll see. Welp, that's all folks!

Hallelujah-Panic! At The Disco

P!ATD dropped a new single 'Hallelujah' today and it's SO GOOD ! So you know how I've been super excited for Warped Tour?? Well now I'm freaking the freak out about it. I just want everything to go perfectly, but unfortunately that doesn't run in my family. Something bad ALWAYS HAPPENS TO US and I just want nothing to happen. I want everything to go as smooth as possible that entire week. Speaking of nervous, I'm going prom dress shopping soon and I'm nervous about the whole trying on dresses thing. They can't see my scars or there gonna flip out. Ugh what to do. I'll figure it out, I always do. We get so many problems, so we have tons of solutions. �� I'm guessing you didn't see that emoji so its a thumbs up haha. Well that ends this segment of 'What am I doing with my life, when does the concert start?' Toon in tomorrow for tips on how to make a fool of yourself in front of your idols and heros !!!

Somewhere in Neverland- All Time Low

WARPED TOUR WARPED TOUR WARPED TOUR WARPED TOUR WARPED TOUR !!!!!!!!! Sorry, just had to get that out. I'M SO FRIGGING EXCITED FOR WARPED TOUR OH MY GERARD !!! In OTHER NEWS I'm volunteering at an animal shelter tomorrow and I'm super happy for that. I love animals that aren't bugs haha. I hope they let me take pictures with the animals to put on Instagram for my followers and interweb friends. I can't wait for July. WARPED TOUR !!!

Deathbreath- Bring Me The Horizon

My grandma is staying with us for a while !! Yay??? My entire life is going to be filtered now. I can't kill her with my "satanic death music" haha. It should be fun, she's a nice person. Today was cool. It went by so fast, as did this week. I don't even remember Monday. 27 days until graduation. I'm so excited. I need to get these people to sign these community service paper though, mama needs to graduate. I just called myself mama... I am so sorry you had to see that. I'm gonna go now so I hope everyone that reads this has a bandtastic night CX

The End of Heartache-Killswitch Engaged

Today was fun. It was Oscar's birthday. I was asked if I wanted a graduation party and Keith made me say yeah so that's happening now. Also, I'm trying to et my ad to come to Warped Tour with us and go to all the band tents telling what he thinks if them and their music. It'll be hilarious and every fan will want to jump him. haha I really hope he comes. Them hell see me in my real body;my fangirl body. DUN DUN DUUUUNNNN !!! I actually do show it a lot around the house, like when he was naming the list of artists and bands performing this year. My eye was not very makeup cooperative today either. I gotta go to sleep now because my drugs are wearing off and my eye is starting to itch. Good Night !!

Bury Me- 30 Seconds To Mars

Today was a bad day face wise. The pollen was kicking my ass. Other than that my day was good. I started to catch up on My YouTube videos today. I think I'm gonna finish up my essay tomorrow. I have so Much work to do, but then again I don't. Rest In Peace Mitch Lucker. I have no clue why I said that, but I just was thinking of him and decided to type that. We emailed Oxon Hill about that unknown book they say I owe money for today, hopefully they won't force me to pay $50 for it. I hope the weather tomorrow is better, I want to wear makeup. I listen to these kids talk about why people or teachers don't like them and I just think to myself, have you heard the things you say? Have you seen the things you've done? DO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE? But I don't say anything because that'll just lead to a fight and I don't really want to get into any fights. Welp, this piece of peanut brittle needs to get some sleep so I will talk more tomorrow.

Old Scars/Future Hearts- All Time Low

Fast paced day today. Got a schedule of things I need to do this week and next week. I'm so excited that its so close to the end of the school year. I can't wait. Everyday someone reminds me of how young I look, boo. I'm still pretty though. Everyone always calls me pretty, never beautiful. I'm just a pretty, cute 15 looking 18 year old who's going to an all girl college. Everyone keeps asking me not to come back a lesbian. Who says I'm not already?? Haha I'm just kidding. I mean, I did have that thing with Ricki that one time but I wasn't really into it like I probably should've been so I'm pretty sure I'm not homosexual. I love homosexual people, they're so confident and outgoing. They have to be heh. I love ALL LGBT people ! I don't really know how I got to this topic but I'm gonna leave it now. This school year went faster than I thought it would. Good things happened, bad things happened. Horrible things resurfaced/intensified, but so did awesome things. I'm just ready for a new start. Well, I got that horrid thing called school tomorrow and an 8% charge on my phone so goodnight and GodSpeed.

In The End-Black Veil Brides

I just haven't been doing these all week have I? HA! Well I'll have to make up for them.

Car radio- Twenty one pilots

So Google has finally fucked up on me and I can't continue my paper. I don't want to start over I've done so much already. This is the first time Google has ever screwed me over, and it just so happens to be on the most important thing for me. I sent them emails and complaints and hopefully they will fix this immediately. Today was nice. My moms house is cool. I like sitting on the steps in front. The weather is amazing,even though spring time kills me. I envy people without allergies. Since her boyfriends kids are gone now, we'll get to do things like laser tag and other stuff they couldn't do. Other "grown up" stuff(lawl).

Girl That You Love- Panic At The Disco

Sometimes it's okay to be anything other than happy. The other emotions are there for a reason. Gotta wedding tomorrow. Almost typed up funeral, isn't that sad? The wedding is for a lady that I thought was never single. I was told her husband was still in the military. I guess not. At least she's happy now.

Return The Favour- All Time Low

I stayed home today. It was very nice. I'm gonna miss these people when I'm gone; my family, that Is. We may be cursed assholes, but we do help each other out. Yes, I said cursed. If you believe in witches and warlocks and magic, and even God, then you'll believe me. but, seeing as you probably won't, I'm not telling a thing. Not yet anyways. But I'll say this: God is real, but I think he's a hypocritical, selfish prick who only cares about self glorification and power. He's not alone out there. There are others like him, he just doesn't want us to know. because then we won't need him. He'll be weak, and we'll all see it. Well I already see it, and I'm not the only one.

Caraphernalia- Pierce The Veil

Great day, not so great night. I'd tell you about but I don't want to.

Caraphernalia

Great day, not so great night. I'd tell you about but I don't want to.