oh no

I need him. no i don't. I just want him. I want us. Ugh. I'm such a teenager. I just wanna skip this part and get to the ending. I'm tired of being a cliché. I'm a chick flick. God.

Liar

Im not over him. Fuck this. He still cares. Why did he have to tell me that. He didn't understand what i said. Its not over. But why is it over?

The hardest part of this is leaving you.  -Cancer. My Chemical Romance

Yay

Im good now. I'm over it. What made me get totally over it, was while we were talking it all out, he said he's not saying no to giving it another try one day. Like excuse me? I'm not waiting around for you to decide to want me again. Junior was there for me the whole time. He made me talk about it to him. He's a great friend. Anyways, King being conceited made me like eeehh, I'm good. When i didn't jump on it, he saw like never mind then. So yeah, he needs to grow up and realize the world doesn't revolve around him.

Boo

My skin is tearing up because of all this crying I'm doing.

Finito

So yesterday, i got dumped.
I know right?? He says that sometimes, i do things, that, get this, embarrass him. I've never been called an embarrassment before. I'm different. He knows that. So why ask me out, if you know I don't act like these other girls? It really hurt when it happened. He couldn't bring himself to go through with ur, but i just flat out asked if that was his motive, because that was the second times he's told me we gotta talk, and then days i can't do this, never mind. I'm really hurt. I'm sad. I'm pissed. I'm heartbroken. I'm confused. Why make me think you like me? Why make yourself think that? Why put me through all this? Now that i think of it, he's very selfish for this. Now i have this big bear  i can't stand to look at. you know something? I hated this place, because i felt i didn't belong, and he was the only reason i started to feel different. Now, i just wanna stay here in Florida.

Dead.

So we never made it to Florida. we got in a car accident and we all died. Im doing this blog from hell. JK! WE MADE IT! Florida's awesome Christmas is awesome. We saw a dead bear. Right now, I'm tired so I'll catch you up in the morning after i do that dumb packet. MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Dead.

So we never made it to Florida. we got in a car accident and we all died. Im doing this blog from hell. JK! WE MADE IT! Florida's awesome Christmas is awesome. We saw a dead bear. Right now, I'm tired so I'll catch you up in the morning after i do that dumb packet. MERRY CHRISTMAS!

✌

On my way to Florida... Yay!!!

Presents!!!!!!!

I got the cutest Teddy Bear from King for Christmas. AND MY SUPERWOMAN SHIRT!!!!!! AAAHHH I LOVE IT!! is a lil big, but i still love it. I gotta medium. maybe should've gotten a small. It'll shrink some when i wash it. I love the bear more Though. Its big and fluffy. It's name is KJ, King Jr. Waiting for the parents to get home so i can open the rest of these gifts. King lives his speakers i got him. Good couple award. Imy ready for Florida tomorrow. I'm gonna miss King a lot. That's why im taking KJ...

Buurrr

Winter break has a good start. I'm pissed about this packet. Im not reading all that. im gonna do it during the drive. Help waste time.

Uncle house

I'm at my uncle's house giving our cousin's their presents for Christmas. Today was a.... A weird day. Took some random pills that were in my pocket and..... It made me lala loopsy. I have a headache and I'm hot. And my eye hurts. I fell a lot and i think i cried like 20 times over nothing. Never again. I also got squished and met new people. Made up a handshake with PJ and got twerked on by demetrius. What a day. I'm ready for Florida.

Stuff

So im watching the winter concert with my best friend Aaron Allen Mason, of the Mason Jars.

Im Back

Sooo i was just thinking. Michelle is the i got so depressed. When i got here last year, she told David (Gordon) that she thought i was weird, and she would talk about me behind my back. I never had anyone do that to me before, and it hurt me. A lot. i started to think about how people viewed me. I felt like everyone was judging me, not just her. It made me feel ugly and stupid and i started to point out every flaw in me i could. Now i can't stop. I have good days, i have bad. Recently, I've been having more bad than good.

Guess what??

Soooo, I'm going to be spending Christmas in Florida. AWESOME! I've never spent Christmas in got weather. I'm so excited. We're going there to see my uncle and aunt. I'm ready to go now. I wanna go to the beech while I'm there, but i have a feeling that's not gonna happen. I get my gift from Tami tomorrow. I'm so excited and nervous as to what she got me. I hope i like it. I have more to talk about, but i got work to do so imma continue this later.

AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

O. M. G. MY SUPERWOMAN TEAM SUPER T-SHIRT CAME YESTERDAY!!!!!!!!!! KING SENT ME THE PICTURE.... AAAAAAAHHHHHG!!!!! Also, ......

MY BEAR KEG CAME!!!!!!!!!! 5LBS OF PURE GUMMY BEARS ALL FOR ME!!!! OMG BEST DAY EVER!!

Symone won her FIRST basketball game of the season today, 48-2. She scored almost half the points too. I was in SAC he entire first period. They thought me and King were, ya know, doing the nasty. We really weren't. I texted Ruth, and she sent it to my dad. He told me he thought i caught King having sex with another girl! He said he thought he was gonna have to beat someone up. My daddy loves me! The reat of the school day went well. I saw the Christmas play. Felt like i was watching a bad Tyler Perry movie. I have work to do though. Gotta get these grades up. B's and i think a C. In gym. No words needed.

Okay......

I like to sing.... There, I said it. Now someone knows...

Impromptu

I had a good day today. A really good day. Heck, i had a GREAT DAY. I'm still helping Darius lower his ego to realize syje isnt like these other girls out here. Boy, he thinks a little too highly of himself. Still my twinn though. So instead of taking me HOME, King and his Dad decide, WITHOUT TELLING ME, to go to their house. I didn't mind of course. He fed me food and pie and chicken( I've wanted chicken for days so he made me some). I hung out with King at his house until he had to go to work. Then he drove to his job and then his dad took me home. It was nice to see him during the week. His dad doesn't usually let him see me on weekdays other than Friday. I changed my mind on taking the ASVAB, but I don't have the heart to tell Dominick. It's just that when I see him and he's talking to me, his face is so beautiful I just agree with whatever he says. When he saw me he looked upset. I was supposed to text him letting him know if I have my social security card or not, but i forgot. He was all like "you just didn't want to."..... O_O its half and half. I'M SORRY DOMINICK!!!

Visitors

David's over my house!! David lake, that is. I missed him so much. He's my diary. Today was a good day. Cheniah is spending the night over my house. I wish I could've gone to Ricki's house, but he has a JROTC event tomorrow. Imma spend the night another day. oh yeah, i skied Chyna out on Instagram cuz she spammed my feed, and i gave her a to be honest that said i hated out first conversation. She said let's leave the past and talk more. I think that's great. finally we can move past that whole thing.

Cheese

My life is okay. It could be better I guess. I Mean, if I think about it, is not that bad. I have a dad that takes care of me, a great step mother, good friends here and at my home in DC, a great boyfriend that treats me well, i finally have a family that talks to me. But on the other hand, I've moved around all my live. There's really no stability. I don't know everyone here like i do back home. There's some omen on me that won't let me get a job despite the fact that EVERYONE wanted to hire me in 10th grade when i couldn't get a job, but now it's like everyone hates me. I suffer with depression that comes when i wave it least. The fact that I've never talked about my emotions keeps me guarded and my boyfriend hates that, i feel alone, scared, hurt, and dead. I'm in a constant battle with my dad for equality between me and my brothers. I want SO BAD to talk about all this, but i can't. I know people will listen, but i don't want anyone to hear. Fuck therapy, that's no help. I should talk to King, but again, its hard to express my emotions. I've kept so much about me hidden from everyone. Even my parents. Even myself. How can i keep my manically depressed friends happy if I'm manically depressed myself? I can't keep others happy and be happy too. Its one or the other....

Christmas

Christmas is approaching fast and i still haven't gotten King his speakers. I'm gonna ask them to take me to get it tomorrow. He's taking the ACT tomorrow. I hope he does well. I'm getting myself a shirt for Christmas that has lyrics to one if my favorite pierce the veil song off their new album. Tami got me something for Christmas. That was a nice surprise. Now i have to get her something but i don't know what to get her. It's a really strong love/hate relationship i have with surprises. That's why i love Christmas. I also love how people act around this time. Everyone is happier and nicer. Everything is bright and jolly. I sound like a Christmas song.

SitSAT

I think i did good on the test Saturday. Only skipped four questions in total. They dumbed it down a little. Today was a good day. My headphones officially broke. Only one ear works when i move it around. I'm getting king those water speakers for Christmas. He was staring at them in the mall the other day. he's gonna love it. I caught up on almost all my vlogs today. My body's almost where i want it. Little more work...

Redo

Taking SAT tomorrow. Pray for me...

Redo

Taking SAT tomorrow. Pray for me...

...

I had a sad day today... No smiles

Die??? I'll think about it. Until then, I'll just exist. ^_^ ( x_x )

I'm suffocating

Today was okay. I saw what i need to graduate. I just need to pass my classes and get the rest of my hours. All this talk about college and graduation is freaking me out. I need some fresh air and a glass of water with a fluffy pillow to calm me down and let me breath. Time is going WAY too fast for me right now. After winter break, my year is pretty much over. I don't know if I'm ready for the world yet, or if its ready for me. I pray everything will work out for me...

Poor Peeta

So i watched Mocking Jay, and OMG!! POOR PEETA!! HE'S SO MALNOURISHED AND ABUSED!!! I FEEL SO BAD! AND THEN HE WENT TO KILL HER!!!! My date was great. I had so much fun. I can't wait until next November.

I'm fat again

I ate a lot. This was by far, the best thanksgiving I've ever had. I had lots of fun. Everyone came to aunt Crystal's house. I'm so happy cowgirls lost!!!!! My dad got totally wasted. I pretty sure i gained 10 pounds worth of food.Now for the other great day, tomorrow.

Happy Thanksgiving !!!

We're going over aunt Crystal's houser for Thanksgiving, can't wait. Helping cook the stuffing and macaroni and cheese was fun. That's what we're bringing. Its gonna taste amazing. Everyone is gonna be there. Even Christina. I'm so excited. I hope King has a good time today as well. He wont see his mother until Friday, my heart goes out to him. I'm just waiting for 3 o'clock to roll around, then we leave...

I wanna die. I'm depressed again. Idk what made me slide back into it, but I'm in it now. Let's just hope i don't cut again like last year... We'll see.

Taco Fest

Today was Men Make a Difference day. Lots of girls here. I'm surprised a fight didn't break out today, amazed. Today was a good day. I watched a lot of videos from the Pierce the veil World Tour going on right now as we sorrel. Wish i could go. I left my bag with all my things in the gym, horrible. My wallet, keys, everything i could ever need, is in that bag. I pray it's there waiting for me at school . ur and all the contents originally in there that is. I need my things. November is not my month. I hope December is better.

Thursfriday

I kept thinking today was Friday, I'm sadly mistaken. Mr. Reed told me to him advanced chorus. I'll think about it. Im getting a #TeamSuper T-shirt!!!! I am so stoked! King got it for me as a gift. I'm getting him these shoes. He's a sneaker head on the low, but I'm not so i just went to Nike.com, looked under new releases, and got ones that i think are nice. I had it custom made to be in his favorite color (purple) and say his initial on the sides and his first bene on the tongue. I think i topped his gift for me. He doesn't know about it though. Ik he's gonna love it.

Surprises

Wednesday was an ok day. Turns out king can't come to the movies, so Saturday will be a girls day. I was upset at first, but now im ok. Honor roll assembly. It was cool, not physically though. Physically it was scorching. I found it today i have a cavity. I literally flossed a piece of my tooth off. I'll be going to the dentist next week. Tooth and tonsil.. What a week.

Sick day

Tuesday i stayed home with Daniel.. He was ok. We watched animal videos. Monkeys are savage. I love amoxicillin. Everyone got to eat chicken while i eat  soup. No fair. Its cool though,I'm getting better.

Bubble gum

Do i have tonsillitis??? Yes I do!!! So, I will not be attending school tomorrow because I have tonsillitis. Got it this morning. The only up side to being eternally hot but not being able to have anything cold, and having a massive headache is that i get hot chocolate and my medicine taste like bubble gum. I'm gonna miss King tomorrow. I'm not gonna miss school though. It is so hard to swallow. I met my doctor today, she's nice. I Also found out I'm 5'2 1/2" . Boy does life suck sometimes. I'm still cute though. At least i can get my work done tomorrow.

Recap

My phone was freaking out yesterday, but now it's great. Friday was a good day. I watched Ask Superwoman Live, by only for an hour because i had to go home. It was still great though. Everything else went pretty normal.

Long time no see

I miss King. I get to see him at school, but with with and his dad making him do all sorts if things at the last minute, i didn't get to spend time with him this week. I didn't even see him Tuesday. It's okay though, as long as we still have each other. Today was an okay day. I talked to Myjhan for the first time since that whole thing went down between us and what king told me he said about me. I forgive him now. But he's still a salty, jealous dick. Tomorrow is ask superwoman live at 2pm. IM going to watch it even though I'll be at school. I don't do anything on B days anyways.

Talk

We were all up Kaye Kat night just talking. The whole family. My day yesterday Was good. At the end of the day we were smelling gas. Then we saw students leaving the building, but coach T didn't let us go. I guess everything was okay though. I woke up restart feeling much better than the other night, which us good because I hate when I'm not happy. I hope today goes well. Great start considering i get a ride to school.

...

Very disappointing day. Im not feeling happy. Spending days keeping someone else smiling, made it so I can't find a reason to smile when I desperately need one. I'm not happy right now.

Milk

I don't know why, but i enjoyed the milk better than the cereal. I had a good day today. Got gummy breasts and lifesaver gummies. I got some lifesaver gummies for King tomorrow, shh! I might be going to the spy museum tomorrow. I hope we can go. I've always wanted to go since I was a kid. No one likes going places i like, like museums or the meridian park. Its okay though, that's what King is for. I'll drag him. If we go to the museum, I'm gonna stop by some old friends house, while I'm in DC. Because we miss each other.

One Month Strong

I've officially had only ONE home-cooked meal this week, and technically it wasn't at hime because King made it at his house. I don't know how people can do this all the time. I need a home-cooked meal. I feel fat. Today was a good Day. WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOR ONE WHOLE MONTH!!!! It came very quick. Feels longer though. We are hanging out tomorrow though. I had to perform "I've Been Wishin' " on the piano durning class today. I was so nervous, everything left my mind. I started off all wrong and had to get help to remember what to do. All my friends said I was okay, I beg to differ. He said he's doing that every month, next time I'll be prepared. 

MY BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is Simnein's 16th birthday today! I'm so happy for him. I remember my 16th birthday, it took forever to come. It always does for everyone. We're going to Ihop today, because that's where he wants to go. We were hoping we could get out of school early, but it didn't happen, unfortunately. I still have that sore throat. King didn't kiss me all day because he doesn't want to get it. But he kissed me yestersday. I'm seriously considering joining the Reserves. It'll help pay for college. I'm going to take the ASVAB test and if I pass, I'll see what job I can get and how the basic training will interfere with college. I want to go in and be out by spring admissions. I know I won't be able to go in for Fall. I've come to terms with it though. The only reason I'll join is because I have no way to pay for college. I'll fill out the FAFSA and keep applying for Scholarships and grants, but If push comes to shove, I'll do the Reserves thing. The ONLY thing scaring me away is war. What happens if we go to war and they need people? Then I have to go. I don't want that. We'll see. I need some help from above on this decision. 

Wednesday

I had a First Generation College Bound meeting today. King didn't go. Instead he went to work. I thought that was not a smart choice, especially since University of Maryland College Park was there. Hopefully he'll go to the next one. Wednesday I woke up with a sore throat. I have no idea how I got it. I had a pretty good day. I ate McDonalds for dinner, It was alright. While we were there, we saw Jahmorey, Marnique and Byron( and Byron's cute Girlfriend). I haven't seen them in a minute. We were talking outside the store, but then a cop pulled up beside us and we dispersed. I hate being type-casted like that. We were just a couple of friends catching up, and he pulls up by us and starts giving us this look like were doing something bad. It's okay though, because we are nothing like he thinks. Tomorrow is my brother's 16th birthday. I can't wait. 

Tuesday

Tuesday was a great day. I got to spend the whole day with King. I rode the bus to his house, he didn't want me to ride the bus by myself, but no one could drive me. There were these kids on the bus who reminded me of me and my brothers when we were their age. They were between 3-5. Two girls and a boy. The boy said bus drivers couldn't drive SCHOOL buses because they weren't SCHOOL bus drivers, just bus drivers. I just wanted to give them all a hug. I'm creepy. I met two of King's friends, Tre and David. David is an asshole. But he knows it. He says it like it's an accomplishment. Poor boy. Tre is cool though, I like him. They're both Juniors. King made me dinner, and it was really good. He's going to be a great chef. I played Horse. It was fun. I was the first one out, but I expected that. Tre was the one to get me out. He knows I can't play basketball, and he's gonna make shots he knows I have NO chance of making. I had fun on Tuesday.  

Monday

I'm backtracking again... Monday was a good day. I stayed home and caught up on tv shows I never get to watch on time. King had to work so I didn't get to see him, But I saw him on Tuesday. It was a pretty bland and boring day, not much happened. Tuesday was a much better day though. You'll see.  

😰😰😰😰😰

So, I'm on my dad's  iPad. He took our phones because the dishes weren't clean and put up. Now I can't talk to King. I am so sad right now, I feel like crying. God, I sound like I'm in a chick flick. I didn't see him all day today, and now I can't talk to him. I have no idea how long they're holdong them. I didn't even finish our conversation. We were talking about life after high school. What'll happen if we make it that far( I hope so) and what we'll do when we go to college. I don't want to lose him. I feel like I already have no that they took my phone. They do have a point though. We need to actually put up the dishes when they're in the dishwasher. No smiles on my face until I see King. 

Girls moment

I'm blogging while my nails are drying. I put a strip on it. Today was a good day.  I wrote my essay and speech in 45 minutes, my hand was cramping. I had to get it done though. I was upset today, can't say why. King knew i was upset before i even showed it. He cheered me up, like a good boyfriend does. I wonder what he blogs about.... I don't think he blogs about me. It doesn't matter though.

Owwwee

I hurt my hand with a can of soup. My left hand. It us extremely painful. I don't know how I'm going to write tomorrow. Hopefully it feels better tomorrow morning. Today was a good day. I got to see King at 3rd period today. That was nice. Boy, can't wait for January. Staff Sargent Dominick J. Engle talked to me about the reserves. It's something I'm really considering. It would help pay for College. It was so sweet to see King with that Redskins hat on! Victory never looked so good.

The Bet

Today is the day. I made a bet with King on the game tonight. If he wins, i wear that dumb jacket to school tomorrow. BUT, if I win,  he gets rid of his Cowboys key chain, and gets a Redskins key chain. I really hope
I win. I know he'll hate wearing it, but it'll be so sweet to see. After a week or so I'll give him the Cowboys chain back, Because I care. Today was a good day. I took the pretest for the ASVAB. I did okay. Daniel is going to help me study for the actual test. He had a very high score. I hope our game score is high. I really don't want to go outside with that hoodie on.

Just because

I'm bored right now so I'm blogging. So I was unable to see King this past weekend. Boo. Hopefully i can see him this weekend. He isn't working on Saturday. For some Reason, a whole bunch of boys have started to show interest in me. I think it's because of how happy I am with King. It started to bother me because they would spam my Instagram and kik with all sorts of messages and stuff. Like, I'm taken, don't you see the date in my bio? King sent me third picture that said " if I see a date in your bio imma assume its your locker combo and slide in your DM anyway". It was funny but I'm like, no please don't. I like my relationship, I don't want it to not look like it. As a result, I put up a picture on Insta basically telling every boy that I am not looking for a relationship because I'm in a great one.

Sigh

King just left my house..... *sigh*. I miss him already. I'll see him tomorrow though. Today was a good day. I listened to the entire Pierce the veil collide with the sky album in forth period. We took our class of 2015 panoramic picture. I'm having trouble writing this college essay for Towson. It asks me what my viral YouTube video would be. I can't think of anything that I would do on YouTube. Chyna came up me saying that Daniel said I said things that I did not say. She felt so defensive and I didn't even say anything that he said I did. Everything is cleared up now. I can't wait till tomorrow.

Spare the rod....

Today was an okay day. I woke Yop feeling like I was going to vomit. I didn't though. In English there were a group of friends talking about disciplining their children. Only one thought it was good to do. One of them confused discipline with abuse, and the other just simply disagreed with the whole thing. I think that discipline is necessary in raising a child. It helps them understand what is wrong to do. It is then up to the child whether or not to follow the rule. If so, great. If not, they will suffer the consequences. King was supposed to come over my house today, but his dad said no on account of it being a school night. Bleh. Maybe Friday.

I wanna know: Joe

Saturday was awesome. I had so much fun with King. It was great. He's a good driver. I just realized how important an ID is for me, i need to get one. Sunday was a long day. The walking dead was great, as always. Church was church. Today was a good day. I got to see King more than just at lunch, which was very nice. Everyone around me keep cracking their screens, i feel like I'm next. I hope I'm not next. I wanna know is our song.... I love this song.

The Help

All I did was work, work, work. I had so many clothes to clean today, our washer and dryer should get a paid vacation. I started washing at 8:30am, it is now 11:51pm and I just finished. It is so hot in the laundry room. I watched Titanic today. It want my first time, but I still enjoyed it like it was. I watched this comedian today who made so many jokes about horrible things, and didn't care about the audiences reaction. I thought that was very brave and bold of him. I think that because he had a care free attitude about it, it made the jokes funny. I had a stressful day, but my mom came over so all is well. I love my mom so much, I really missed her.

Hatorade

Today was an okay day. King told me some girls told him i was booloving with some boy in gym yesterday. I know what they're talking about, and no, we were far from it. You could sit a whole person between us. Plus, he's a freshman and i think of him as my brother. But above all, i would never cheat on anyone. I think that's sick and twisted to play someone like that. He didn't believe them so whatever they were trying to do didn't work. Other than that, the rest of the day was great. I have some work to do tomorrow. Essays. I'm making myself a schedule to keep me on track with my work.  Using my day off to catch up and try to find something to wear for Saturday before buying something. I gotta date. ����

The Parents

So I went to the first generation college bound orientation meeting today. It was very informative. While we were there, me and King met each other's parents. I was so nervous to meet his dad. I can tell his father likes me. He kept trying to talk up King to my dad so we can go out on Saturday. My dad says he likes him and that they have to meet my step mom for us to go out first. I'm so glad he likes him. I changed my outfit 4 times. My phone is being stupid right now and I can't text him. Boohoo. Today was a great day.  

Untitled

Today was a pretty good day. I got that depression thing again. King was so concerned about me. That's nice to hear. I just found out that I have to do a bcr and an essay. I got work to do. It took me 3 1/2 hours to do my hair for tomorrow. At least it gives me time in the morning. I showed my dad that I know how to make a pot of coffee today. It took me forever to get him to say yes to going to the first generation college bound meeting. He didn't want to go because.... Well, he never really explained why. All I know is that he's going tomorrow. I'm so Happy he agreed.

Unneeded Guilt

So today I find out that Chyna liked King. Now I kind of feel bad for stealing him while she was trying to ease her way in there. He told me he liked her at one point,but then stopped. I don't know how long or recent that point was but I feel like I owe her an apology.I also feel like she hates me now. I finally understand the looks she gives me in class now. I'm sorry but I like him so I'm gonna stay with him. He wants to meet the dad. I don't know why, but I'm really nervous for that. I'm also nervous to meet his family. I just want them to like me, and vice versa. In other news, Mr. Johnson is going to write me a letter of recommendation. I knew he would do it if I asked him. He loves me as a student. It took about three hours to do my hair for tomorrow, but a promise is a promise so I got to get it done. My fingers hurt. I really like King...

Walking Dead!!!!

Walking Dead in less than an hour!!! I'm so excited!! I've missed this show so much. This weekend was pretty good. I went to church on Friday. It was okay. I'm starting to slack on these blogs and I needn't do that. I should set an alarm to do them. I've committed to fully doing my hair everyday this week. I need to get in the habit of exercising even when I don't go gym or school. There's a lot I need to get in the habit of doing.

Mrs. Melton

I got called Mrs. Melton today by junior. It was so unexpected. I didn't know he knew about us. Yesterday was pretty good. I had one of those moments again, where I get super depressed out of nowhere. Andrea thought I was mad at her.I was a little, because she just abandoned me for Kiera. I have abandonment issues. I'm going to talk to her today though. I'm not telling her why I was mad. I'm scared that I won't be able to get into college because I was irresponsible in 10th grace and let my grades slip. I only have a 3.0 and to go to Towson the average is 3.3. I don't want to go to PGCC, bit it looks like I'll have to do the first two years there. I probably sound crazy, they're tons of school that would accept me, but I know It could be much better. I should have a 4.0. My dad constantly tells me I messed up my life. It really hurts me sometimes when he does that, but I don't say anything.

Mark Wallburgh

So apparently I am a tease to both girls and guys. I don't really understand how but I guess I can be too friendly at times. I'm at that age where what I do to people has different outcomes than it used to. Time to grow up some more. Yesterday was a good day. I didn't write this blog on account of Mark Wallburgh being on the television ( Transformers Age of Extinction). I have my moments sometimes. It's official, as of yesterday, that I am a queen. I'm dating King. Cool.

Waaaaa??????

I just got called the best thing ever!!!!!!!!! Things are looking up for me. Towson University's college tour was so nice. I had fun. There was this other girl who had the same major as me, and she was walking beside me. I appreciated it, but at the same time, I'm not going to make friends with someone I might not see every again. Im using the Blogger app right now. It's pretty nice. Today was a great day.

Fri-Fri-Friday!!!

I am SO glad that it's Friday. I've been waiting for this day for forever. I'm watching this show named Red Band Society, and there's this boy who is like totally jealous of his new friend. Now, I feel he does have a reason to be upset, he has cancer like him, but he got to keep his leg, and his ex girlfriend that he wants back likes him. I feel bad for him. I hope they fix his life a little. I have that college tour to Towson at 11am tomorrow. I am sore from gym today. We did so many exercises. Lunges suck eggs. I Have to tell Andrea happy birthday tomorrow. She's a great girl. Sucks that I don't get to sleep in tomorrow, but it's for a good cause. My future. 

Tickets

I have had a good day today. I got to find out more information about how to go about this whole Senior year/college preparedness thing. I played Badminton in gym today with Oleda. We played first to win two games. I won 2/3. I wish the school had a Badminton team. I would join. I've decided what I want for my Birthday, Tickets to go see Pierce the Veil in concert. I don't know why, but I've become totally obsessed with them. All of their music is just, amazing. I would love to go see them in concert. I would have to miss a school day though, It's worth it. Either that or miss two days to travel to a show on a weekend. The one day is better. I can't believe that VIP tickets are only $75!! That's awesome! I would love to meet Kellin Quinn. I would marry that man. He is B-E-A-UTIFUL! His daughter Copeland is so pretty. I want to be his next baby mother. Well, I want to be his wife, not just a baby momma. I'm taking this chance to yet again, enjoy the fresh air outside. 

The best day of my life

Today I found out some VERY entertaining information. I can't say what, but it's definitely made my day. I made about 8-10 3-pointers today in gym. I'm really trying to practice so that I can play with my little sister and help her. She plays and the only one in the house who knows how to play is Daniel. She needs extra practice but he never takes her out. Hopefully, I can step up to the plate. I'm glad that I have a Financial Management class. Lord know I needed it. I'm learning so much about credit and how it works. I will be so informed when I become an adult. I went the a meeting about First Generation College Bound today. It seems very good and beneficial to be apart of. I want to do it. Hopefully my parents will do it, and not bull crap around like they did for the NSHSS. I'm still a little upset over that. I'm going out to enjoy the sun today. On the BEST day of my life.

TUESDAY September 30, 2014

So I thought today was Thursday. I went around saying It's Thursday. My friends were all like " no Kareema, not yet". Poor me. I did not want to do school today. I learned how to play Basketball today(or at least make good shots). This boy showed me how to make a shot. He said to aim for the box everytime and you should make it. He was right. Then I played Khalil, and lost. But I los by 3 points(we played first to 5). He said he beat me for winning Dance Central when we were both at Keimaya's house( he was with Andre, her uncle). he also said it was for not saying Goodnight to him. I thought that was funny. I told him next time I would say goodnight. I Could not play Basketball for a living. I was sweating so much my curls went away. We had a free period in Technical Graphics. I just went on Pinterest( Pinterest is bae) and listened to music. I want to get plugs, or gauges, in my ears. Not huge ones, but maybe a 2 or 0. I like them and i don't think my parents would mind. It doesn't really matter if they do though. I'm going on a college tour to Towson this Saturday. I am super excited. I hope I like the campus. 

Homecoming

I had a great weekend. I stayed over Keimaya's house because we were going to the Parade, the Game, and the Dance together, so it's just easier to be in one place. I didn't know Andre was her uncle. I was in the Parade. It was fun. We lost the game though(ugh). Our winning streak is officially over. Let's just pray this isn't the start of a losing streak. I was Keith and Carl at the game. I missed them so much since they graduated. I congratulated him on the pregnancy, but he didn't seem too excited about it. I confirmed my attendance to his birthday party on the 27th. He kept asking if I would be there. I guess he missed me too. He said after the party we should go out just the two of us, I hope that doesn't mean something. That would be so crazy. The dance was great. I feel for our generation though. Who twerks with their legs wrapped around someone and their hands in the air? I don't know how they do it but these girls are sex-crazed. We had to stop Romeo from fighting though. Somebody was dancing with his girl. My thing is, why did your girl dance with another guy? She's the one he needs tp be upset with. He said he cut her off though, finally. There are a lot of people who are freaks on the DL, including yours truly(opps). I am a good girl though, I just have other sides to me. I felt so bad in church the other day. My dad made me go. I could never do that every week, How would I be able to hear?

The Signal

Today was a gloomy day off. I went to work with my stepmom and my little sister(only because she asked me to go with her to Ruthie's job). I was on kik and IG most of the time. They put the final season of How I Met Your Mother on Netflix, so I totally watched that. I miss that show so much now that it's over. It was a great series. I watched this movie called the signal. Well, to be honest, I'm watching it still now. I wish I could type without looking. It is very interesting and is about Area 51(Hence my reading log). These white people in their early 20s had alien interaction and were tooken to some weird place. It is so strange, yet one of the best films I've ever seen. These are the best types of movies. Not the actiony ones, but the ones with a lot of dialogue. I keep forgetting that we have school tomorrow. Having a day off int he middle of the week is not that great. Especially if it rained most of the day. Tomorrow will be a good day I think. 2K15

Way Back Wednesday

Today was a good day. I talked to new people today. I also played "The Cuckoo" right in Piano class. Took a while though, and an extra period. I planked for a total of 1 minute today. Worst minute of my life, besides the time I planked for 2 minutes with my sisters. THAT was the worst minutes of my life. I kept thinking today was an A day but it's a B day. I spent lunch with Keith EBanks in the library today. Very informative. he doesn't dance, yet. I'm determined to get him to voluntarily dance. Hopefully I can get it done. I should go out today, I think I will. 

Twin Day

Today was twin day for spirit week. Tami asked me to be her twin so I said sure. Tomorrow I'm going to be Rosie the Riveter(only because I can't go to school dressed like Marilyn Monroe without getting kicked out of school). Or just a lady from the 50's. Today was alright. I got my Advanced Accounting to yet ANOTHER physical education class. That makes three. Personal Fitness, LifeTime Sports, and now Physical Training. When I graduate I'm gonna be able to go on American Ninja Warrior. I barely got my work done in English today. It wasn't really a lot of work, but I was just so distracted today. I don't know what about. 

Update

I had a good weekend. I saw ricki on Sunday. She, I mean he, surprised me. I have to get used to saying he. We went to a community day event at her church. We rock climbed and did an obstacle course. It was fun. She told me if I was gay she would date me. That was really weird. Especially since I tend to have moments where I'm not sure of my sexuality. I think I'm bisexual, but I don't want to be. Lord knows I don't. Monday was pretty good. Apparently I'm not supposed to be in advanced accounting on account of me failing first year accounting. I'm happy for that because I know for a fact I will fail that class. Machi told me to come see him today. I hope he doesn't give my appointment away like last time. That pissed me off. I hope he sent my transcripts to those schools. He'd better, that's my future. 

FreeDay

I almost forgot that even though It's my day off, I still have work to do. So today I just stayed inside and chilled. My Alumni friend David Lake was supposed to come over, but things change. I saw him yesterday so It's okay. I am finally getting my glasses. They said I should get them by Monday. They were ordered online(which is amazing). A person could literally get everything they need in life, through the internet. Food, clothes, entertainment, human interaction, everything. But I watch ASAP science( a youtube page about science things) and they say that if you stay inside for a long period of time, you will die. So you need to go out to live. I' so glad for that. Nature is awesome. I have to do this project with David( Gordon, not Lake) but I don't think I'm going to do it with him. He noticed that I have distanced myself from him and asked me about it. I didn't really give him the real reson I just told him it just happened that way. Then he was all like If I don't go up to him next week he won't be friends with me anymore. Like, excuse me? Our friendship is that disposable to you? Then he doesn't need it. I told him that too. Not what he was expecting. Then he started acting REALLY childish and holding my fingers so I couldn't do my work. To add on, he keeps using the "C" word in front of me on purpose and laughing when I get upset. He knows how much I hate that word and how offensive I find it. Honestly, I;m starting to seriously question why I was even friends with him in the first place. He is so self centered and inconsiderate. I need to get rid of more people than him honestly. They aren't good for me nor do they help me for my future. Today I was watching a show, and It got me thinking about adult life. It just registered to me that I will be all on my own. I always knew I would have to leave my parents home, But today I was REALLY thinking about it. I have to leave home, get a job, pay my bills all by myself(assuming I don't get a roommate,Hopefully I do). But most of all, I'll have to grow up. I don't know if I'm ready to grow up. Being a kid is a lot of fun. With no real problems. I think ultimately, I'll figure it all out.

Making Tough Choices

So, I was thinking right. I like Darius, but there's like a thousand(more like 50) other girls that like him as well. I'm not really the catty type of girl. Also, he just got here. He doesn't really need al these girls on his line drooling at him(not saying that I do that). So, I heartbreakingly decided to just be his friend. That's all he needs right now. So yeah, just friends. I'll just mentally stab myself in the eye when he tells me about his new girlfriend two months from now(oh how that will sting). School was okay today. I took the accuplacer test. I am not good at math. Weird because I'm good with numbers, just not math. If that makes any type of sense. I should study more. The rest of the day was good, went normal as usual. I talked to my really old friend Ricki today. I only get to see her once a year. She told me she was in the process of becoming transgender, and asked my opinion on it. It was kind of awkward for me but I don't have a real problem with it. I just Don't know what to say if she gets married. I don't know if I could go to that wedding given my opinion on marriage( I believe it was meant for a man and a woman, nothing else). I don't want to lose her over something like sexual preference. We are going to live together when we graduate. I have determined myself to meet Superwoman  one day. She is a youtube star that I love so much. Her real name is Lilly Singh. She is so funny and inspirational and just awesome. I have to meet her. No exceptions.

It's Here!!!

The dress is here it came!! It's so pretty and I love it. I went to the cemetery yesterday. It wasn't the plan but Me and some people were in the woods and we ended up at the cemetery. So we walked around the place visiting people and looking at their graves. Lots of Wilbur's. Yesterday was such a nice day. I didn't get home till like 9 pm. I had to go home, but I did not want to. I wonder what It'll be like to graduate and live on my own. Hopefully nice. What Isn't nice are these pimples on my freaking face! They need to go, like now. I hope they go by next week.

Full Report

I totally forgot to do blogs for Thursday and Friday. I was very busy(sort of). Welp, what had happened was, I caught up on Finding Carter(yay). As for school, I am smart apparently. I qualify for the accuplacer test. I hope I pass because I would like to take classes at University of Maryland. However, to go from there to Fairmont might be a stretch. I see why people go to PGCC. But I don't want to go! Eh, I'll get over it. I HATE Machi. He is the worst counselor ever. I need him to get his life together and stop playing with mine. Anywho, I have my homecoming dress, and it is awesome, and black. Can't go wrong with black. I think my prom dress will be black as well.

Miercoles

I punked out. I had yet another chance, and I punked out like the little punk that I am. I promise tomorrow, I'm going to do it no matter what. Today was a good day. I learned how to take notes(yay, I guess), I had a sub for Technical Graphics. I'm already starting to get Senioritis. It's only been 3 weeks! It feels like month though. Graduation will be the best day of my life. If I make it, considering Machi is on some other stuff and is messing with my future. It's been more than a week and he still hasn't sent my transcript over! Do your job dude.I'm bringing in the big guns, the angry parent. That always gets the job done. Pray for my courage tomorrow. I'm breaking tradition.

Martes

Today was such a girlish day. I decided to join Volleyball( I needed to do something). I am not to fond of Mr. Hoskey being the coach on account of his pervertedness, but mercedes said it's cool so I'm going to trust her. I still haven't done my essays for Cody or Caldwell yet, I should really do that next. I need to prioritize my homework so I can get things done in a timely manner. I am a traditional person so lie, I think guys ask girls out. But it's hard when you have no idea what another person is thinking. I'm cutting this short because I have a lot of work to do tonight.

Lunes!

I was so tired today!! I think it was because the first two weeks of school we were out on Monday. Darius came to class super late. I took the pacer test in Personal Fitness and did 30 laps. I have to lose some weight so that I can get the dress I want for Homecoming. They have it in 6 and 8 but not 7(my size). UGH!! I got my Riachu today. But Romeo and Cordell were playing too much and lost it.... IN THE GYM. So they collectively owe me $20. Romeo gave me his $10 today.... Niggas. I am so mad I waited weeks for him and now he's gone. Pikachu is gonna be lonely tonight. ONE DIRECTION HAS A NEW ALBULM COMING OUT!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!!! It's called 'Four'. I wonder when I'm  going to grow out of boy bands? I don't know but they will forever be the most handsome group of boys I've ever seen and one day will meet. Besides Dunk Cam Boy........

Dunk Cam

Today was a good day. I paid David back the $3 I owed him. I haven't talked to him much since the summer ended. To be honest I'm avoiding him. I don't really want to hang out with him. It's not like I don't want to be his friend anymore, I just... actually that is totally what it is. It's nothing wrong with our friendship, I just want to terminate it. I hope he doesn't mind. Darius showed me his video on Youtube of him dunking at a Basketball game last year. It was pretty awesome. He says he's going to be on the team. Now I have to go to all the games. I hope he helps us get far. I've never been to a good athletic school. Maybe he can give me a win for my senior year. That's my christmas wish.

Hump Dayeee!!!

Everyone keeps asking us to write about our goals for the future. I keep having to think about it. I don't really have many goals. I found some though. Today went pretty well. I was very thirsty in 1st period on account of the water being contaminated(LEH). Two whole days of boiling water just to brush my teeth. I talked to that Darius boy some more in Lifetime Sports. he has a nice smile. I got my Official Document Request Forms to Mr.Machi today, which is great. I still have to Apply to Towson and Howard. It's my brother's 19th birthday today. First one where I won't see him. I mean, he could come by the house, but I highly doubt it. I miss him sometimes. Other times I forget all about him.

Giving Back

Today was an okay day. Mr. Cody had us do a essay on what our world is and what it consists of. It made me sad because I realized I don't really have a world. Every time I start to make it, we move and I have to start all over again. I hate moving. When I have kids they are going to stay in one place for their entire childhood. I did 80 curl ups and 15 push ups in Personal Fitness today. I'm proud of myself. I would've done more push ups but I was still sore from my Self defense class the other day. I had to do so many burpies and push ups, my abdomen was sore every time I had to go up on a push up. It's okay though. I made sure I reached my number for my age. Today I gave my popcorn to a homeless guy. I realize popcorn isn't the best thing to give a homeless person, but it's all I had. Plus, he was lying on the floor and I would hate to just walk past him like he's a rock or something. Overall, today made me realize that where ever I go to college, that's more than likely where I will live. So I better make it a nice place.

Reverse

I didn't talk about Yesterday so Let me tell you now. Yesterday my cousin Christina came with us to the pool. We don't get to see her a lot because of her mother. She is very protective. She said Chrissy had to go to the pool and wear a t-shirt so no boys can see her shape. The thing is, she has no body. It was funny but kind of sad. Chrissy was upset. We let her take it off though, but she had to get it wet first so we had proof she actually did it. I do NOT like horse flies. I got stung by one yesterday at the pool. There were 4 or 5 horse flies at the pool. I wanted to go to a new pool but everyone else wanted to stay. By the time we got back in and comfortable in the pool, thunder wanted to come and they kicked everyone out the place. I still had fun though. We grilled too. Everyone else said they slept on Labor Day. I love my family.

What a Day

Today was a pretty good day. Ms.Walker came in my Personal Fitness class today to fake in front of the Freshmen again. I think it's hilarious how she tries to act all big and bad in front of them. Ms. Screws is the real person in charge. I feel bad for her since her dad died. I can't imagine life without my father. I hope she is okay. So, Keith Ivory-Gray came back. He was supposed to have left to move to Virginia. I think it's hilarious because He has a class with his ex, Jasmine. She was so glad that he had left, but now he's back and she is soo uncomfortable. College Summit is gonna be my new favourite class because of that. Sometimes I just sit and watch everyone around me interact with each other. I see all the lifelong relationships they have and it saddens me. I left all my lifelong relationships in D.C. . I know I have friends here, but sometimes I feel all alone.

Bump Technology

So I was outside most of the day today. I was with the other kids around my neighborhood. They are fun. There was this one little girl who had way too much attitude but would follow me around all the time like I was Emma Stone or something. They kept asking me if I was dating Quan. He's nice and all, But he's in the 10th grade. If he was in the 11th, sure, But he's just a little too young for me. Such a shame. The UV Index had to be high because I've never sweat this much in my life. I do not like sweating either. I don't really feel like going to church tomorrow but I probably need to go. WHo needs Technology when outside is so beautiful? Today was a good day.

IT'S FRIDAYEEE!!!!!!!

I love Fridays. Today went well. I met this boy yesterday that is new and rides my bus. He lives in my complex too. He's a nice kid. He says he is a fast runner, so I'm gonna bring him to Mr.Johnson so he can check him out. I hope he joins. Joining a team is a great way to gain new friends. I had piano class today and it was fun. We played a form of Baseball with musical notes. In Lifetime Sports I met this other boy that is new also. He's a Senior too(turn up) and he used to go to Northwestern. I Meet a lot of boys. It's just that girls come with a lot of bull ish sometimes. I did find out that this girl I know from Oxon Hill HS goes here now. I'm excited that she is here.

Day Three

Day three went well. Some freshmen was hitting on me in Personal Fitness, which was very funny. One of the boys(his name is Romeo) asked me if I didn't like dark skinned boys. I just don't like little freshmen kids. I am a senior(turn up) and I do NOT have time for them. The only thing I am not looking forward to is going to the locker room to change into gym clothes. I've never done that before so this is something new for me. I'm comfortable enough though. The rest of my day went well. I'm making a sprite of myself in one of my classes. I like it. Some boy beside me said he knew my brother. I don't really care much unless he wants to start trouble with him, and I don't think he does. I am so glad to be a senior, I do not want to go back.

Day Two

Sooo, I approached the girl and we hashed it out. She thought that I was flirting with her boyfriend but I totally was not, so we're cool now. I don't see a chance of us ever becoming friends but acquaintances totally. Especially since we have common friends. The second first day was pretty good. All my classes are on the 4th floor and I have 4th lunch on B days also. I can already tell I like A days better. I just can't wait for May 28th, Graduation day. Oh what a wonderful day that will be. Today I decided that I won't care about my sister having a boyfriend. I thought about it and, i had a boyfriend in 8th grade so why can't she? I was being hypocritical and I don't want to be. Besides, The boy is a great kid, i like him.

The First Day

I have to start this blog for my English 12 class, so any readers thank Mr.Caldwell of Fairmont Heights. Being a senior at Fairmont has it privileges. Senior Zone, first priority for switching classes, etc. The only thing is that I look like a freshman, to everyone.  "You're a senior?!?!" gets said to me on the regular. I can't help it if I'm only 5'4" and look like I'm 14. Women say I will love it when I get older, but the truth is I can't wait to be old. Any who, I take College Summit in the morning. Unfortunately, Jasmine is in it. She decided last year to hate me the first moment she saw me. I normally wouldn't give a rats ass if someone liked me or not but she happens to be lifelong friends with the friends Iv'e made this past year. Me not wanting to make people uncomfortable have decided not to communicate with some of the females she communicates with. But it makes it kind of hard to be in that class. I thought about switching out but I decided not to let her make or break my year, that it was up to me to decide how my year would go. And that it would be the best year of my life.