Poor Peeta

So i watched Mocking Jay, and OMG!! POOR PEETA!! HE'S SO MALNOURISHED AND ABUSED!!! I FEEL SO BAD! AND THEN HE WENT TO KILL HER!!!! My date was great. I had so much fun. I can't wait until next November.

I'm fat again

I ate a lot. This was by far, the best thanksgiving I've ever had. I had lots of fun. Everyone came to aunt Crystal's house. I'm so happy cowgirls lost!!!!! My dad got totally wasted. I pretty sure i gained 10 pounds worth of food.Now for the other great day, tomorrow.

Happy Thanksgiving !!!

We're going over aunt Crystal's houser for Thanksgiving, can't wait. Helping cook the stuffing and macaroni and cheese was fun. That's what we're bringing. Its gonna taste amazing. Everyone is gonna be there. Even Christina. I'm so excited. I hope King has a good time today as well. He wont see his mother until Friday, my heart goes out to him. I'm just waiting for 3 o'clock to roll around, then we leave...

I wanna die. I'm depressed again. Idk what made me slide back into it, but I'm in it now. Let's just hope i don't cut again like last year... We'll see.

Taco Fest

Today was Men Make a Difference day. Lots of girls here. I'm surprised a fight didn't break out today, amazed. Today was a good day. I watched a lot of videos from the Pierce the veil World Tour going on right now as we sorrel. Wish i could go. I left my bag with all my things in the gym, horrible. My wallet, keys, everything i could ever need, is in that bag. I pray it's there waiting for me at school . ur and all the contents originally in there that is. I need my things. November is not my month. I hope December is better.

Thursfriday

I kept thinking today was Friday, I'm sadly mistaken. Mr. Reed told me to him advanced chorus. I'll think about it. Im getting a #TeamSuper T-shirt!!!! I am so stoked! King got it for me as a gift. I'm getting him these shoes. He's a sneaker head on the low, but I'm not so i just went to Nike.com, looked under new releases, and got ones that i think are nice. I had it custom made to be in his favorite color (purple) and say his initial on the sides and his first bene on the tongue. I think i topped his gift for me. He doesn't know about it though. Ik he's gonna love it.

Surprises

Wednesday was an ok day. Turns out king can't come to the movies, so Saturday will be a girls day. I was upset at first, but now im ok. Honor roll assembly. It was cool, not physically though. Physically it was scorching. I found it today i have a cavity. I literally flossed a piece of my tooth off. I'll be going to the dentist next week. Tooth and tonsil.. What a week.

Sick day

Tuesday i stayed home with Daniel.. He was ok. We watched animal videos. Monkeys are savage. I love amoxicillin. Everyone got to eat chicken while i eat  soup. No fair. Its cool though,I'm getting better.

Bubble gum

Do i have tonsillitis??? Yes I do!!! So, I will not be attending school tomorrow because I have tonsillitis. Got it this morning. The only up side to being eternally hot but not being able to have anything cold, and having a massive headache is that i get hot chocolate and my medicine taste like bubble gum. I'm gonna miss King tomorrow. I'm not gonna miss school though. It is so hard to swallow. I met my doctor today, she's nice. I Also found out I'm 5'2 1/2" . Boy does life suck sometimes. I'm still cute though. At least i can get my work done tomorrow.

Recap

My phone was freaking out yesterday, but now it's great. Friday was a good day. I watched Ask Superwoman Live, by only for an hour because i had to go home. It was still great though. Everything else went pretty normal.

Long time no see

I miss King. I get to see him at school, but with with and his dad making him do all sorts if things at the last minute, i didn't get to spend time with him this week. I didn't even see him Tuesday. It's okay though, as long as we still have each other. Today was an okay day. I talked to Myjhan for the first time since that whole thing went down between us and what king told me he said about me. I forgive him now. But he's still a salty, jealous dick. Tomorrow is ask superwoman live at 2pm. IM going to watch it even though I'll be at school. I don't do anything on B days anyways.

Talk

We were all up Kaye Kat night just talking. The whole family. My day yesterday Was good. At the end of the day we were smelling gas. Then we saw students leaving the building, but coach T didn't let us go. I guess everything was okay though. I woke up restart feeling much better than the other night, which us good because I hate when I'm not happy. I hope today goes well. Great start considering i get a ride to school.

...

Very disappointing day. Im not feeling happy. Spending days keeping someone else smiling, made it so I can't find a reason to smile when I desperately need one. I'm not happy right now.

Milk

I don't know why, but i enjoyed the milk better than the cereal. I had a good day today. Got gummy breasts and lifesaver gummies. I got some lifesaver gummies for King tomorrow, shh! I might be going to the spy museum tomorrow. I hope we can go. I've always wanted to go since I was a kid. No one likes going places i like, like museums or the meridian park. Its okay though, that's what King is for. I'll drag him. If we go to the museum, I'm gonna stop by some old friends house, while I'm in DC. Because we miss each other.

One Month Strong

I've officially had only ONE home-cooked meal this week, and technically it wasn't at hime because King made it at his house. I don't know how people can do this all the time. I need a home-cooked meal. I feel fat. Today was a good Day. WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOR ONE WHOLE MONTH!!!! It came very quick. Feels longer though. We are hanging out tomorrow though. I had to perform "I've Been Wishin' " on the piano durning class today. I was so nervous, everything left my mind. I started off all wrong and had to get help to remember what to do. All my friends said I was okay, I beg to differ. He said he's doing that every month, next time I'll be prepared. 

MY BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is Simnein's 16th birthday today! I'm so happy for him. I remember my 16th birthday, it took forever to come. It always does for everyone. We're going to Ihop today, because that's where he wants to go. We were hoping we could get out of school early, but it didn't happen, unfortunately. I still have that sore throat. King didn't kiss me all day because he doesn't want to get it. But he kissed me yestersday. I'm seriously considering joining the Reserves. It'll help pay for college. I'm going to take the ASVAB test and if I pass, I'll see what job I can get and how the basic training will interfere with college. I want to go in and be out by spring admissions. I know I won't be able to go in for Fall. I've come to terms with it though. The only reason I'll join is because I have no way to pay for college. I'll fill out the FAFSA and keep applying for Scholarships and grants, but If push comes to shove, I'll do the Reserves thing. The ONLY thing scaring me away is war. What happens if we go to war and they need people? Then I have to go. I don't want that. We'll see. I need some help from above on this decision. 

Wednesday

I had a First Generation College Bound meeting today. King didn't go. Instead he went to work. I thought that was not a smart choice, especially since University of Maryland College Park was there. Hopefully he'll go to the next one. Wednesday I woke up with a sore throat. I have no idea how I got it. I had a pretty good day. I ate McDonalds for dinner, It was alright. While we were there, we saw Jahmorey, Marnique and Byron( and Byron's cute Girlfriend). I haven't seen them in a minute. We were talking outside the store, but then a cop pulled up beside us and we dispersed. I hate being type-casted like that. We were just a couple of friends catching up, and he pulls up by us and starts giving us this look like were doing something bad. It's okay though, because we are nothing like he thinks. Tomorrow is my brother's 16th birthday. I can't wait. 

Tuesday

Tuesday was a great day. I got to spend the whole day with King. I rode the bus to his house, he didn't want me to ride the bus by myself, but no one could drive me. There were these kids on the bus who reminded me of me and my brothers when we were their age. They were between 3-5. Two girls and a boy. The boy said bus drivers couldn't drive SCHOOL buses because they weren't SCHOOL bus drivers, just bus drivers. I just wanted to give them all a hug. I'm creepy. I met two of King's friends, Tre and David. David is an asshole. But he knows it. He says it like it's an accomplishment. Poor boy. Tre is cool though, I like him. They're both Juniors. King made me dinner, and it was really good. He's going to be a great chef. I played Horse. It was fun. I was the first one out, but I expected that. Tre was the one to get me out. He knows I can't play basketball, and he's gonna make shots he knows I have NO chance of making. I had fun on Tuesday.  

Monday

I'm backtracking again... Monday was a good day. I stayed home and caught up on tv shows I never get to watch on time. King had to work so I didn't get to see him, But I saw him on Tuesday. It was a pretty bland and boring day, not much happened. Tuesday was a much better day though. You'll see.